Starting Over
As it is with so many things I begin, this detox needs a "do-over."
Since Wednesday, I confess that I've "cheated" in a number of different ways. First I rationalized since I wasn't feeling well, I was entitled to meat a day earlier. Wednesday's supper was my mother's homemade chicken pot pie, including a half a homemade biscuit. Then Thursday there was the spinach tortilla wrap that held the turkey, lettuce, tomato and pickles I had for lunch. Friday's lunch was a repeat of Thursday's. Friday's supper was, well...completely off the wagon - five cheese marinara and pasta from Olive Garden. Saturday was fraught with cheats - granola bar at the lake, fried chicken, mashed potatoes, creamed corn, biscuits and honey (yes, plural) - all from Babes Chicken House in Burleson and a Diet Dr. Pepper and Fiber One cereal while working.
So, tomorrow I will begin again.
I was reflecting on my cheats and realized how weak my determination to do this became once I was compromised (sick). The first seven days, while I thought they would be incredibly hard were surprisingly easy. I didn't suffer from caffeine headaches like I thought I would; I didn't crave carbs or starch or even sweets.
But once I began to feel bad, I caved very quickly. In all of my rationalizing it struck me that my failure in this diet is much the same in my walk with the Lord. When things are good, it is easy to keep a consistent walk and stay on track. When we are "sick" - out of fellowship with the Lord, not meeting regularly with other believers, have sin in our lives, have an unforgiving heart - it is much too easy to rationalize our behavior.
So today I will begin again.
Since Wednesday, I confess that I've "cheated" in a number of different ways. First I rationalized since I wasn't feeling well, I was entitled to meat a day earlier. Wednesday's supper was my mother's homemade chicken pot pie, including a half a homemade biscuit. Then Thursday there was the spinach tortilla wrap that held the turkey, lettuce, tomato and pickles I had for lunch. Friday's lunch was a repeat of Thursday's. Friday's supper was, well...completely off the wagon - five cheese marinara and pasta from Olive Garden. Saturday was fraught with cheats - granola bar at the lake, fried chicken, mashed potatoes, creamed corn, biscuits and honey (yes, plural) - all from Babes Chicken House in Burleson and a Diet Dr. Pepper and Fiber One cereal while working.
So, tomorrow I will begin again.
I was reflecting on my cheats and realized how weak my determination to do this became once I was compromised (sick). The first seven days, while I thought they would be incredibly hard were surprisingly easy. I didn't suffer from caffeine headaches like I thought I would; I didn't crave carbs or starch or even sweets.
But once I began to feel bad, I caved very quickly. In all of my rationalizing it struck me that my failure in this diet is much the same in my walk with the Lord. When things are good, it is easy to keep a consistent walk and stay on track. When we are "sick" - out of fellowship with the Lord, not meeting regularly with other believers, have sin in our lives, have an unforgiving heart - it is much too easy to rationalize our behavior.
So today I will begin again.
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