What Have I Done?
I confess...I am wondering what I have gotten myself into. About two months ago I accepted a supervisory position at work. I never fooled myself into believing it would be easy, but I never fully believed it would be this hard.
Don't get me wrong, I am having the time of my life. Work has never been more fast-paced and fun. I love what I do and the day just speeds by; this I really like because it makes the time away from my kids less painful. We're hiring as fast as we can to help with the workload so there's new people to train as well. I like training, teaching and showing others just how much I love the work we do in Fort Worth.
But...there are personnel issues, decisions to make, and a host of things I can't really talk about. I thought being a Mom would prepare me for most of the stuff I would have to deal with. It just never occurred to me that I would be using my Mom skills dealing with grown-up issues.
So, I could use your prayers. Lots of them. I am in need of guidance and direction more than ever in my career yet I am in a season of prayerlessness. I close my eyes to pray and nothing comes. I don't mind being still and listening but I'm not hearing anything either.
As I was cleaning my desk, I came across an article I saved from a Bible study I did on priorities. It pointed out that one of the keys to identifying whether your priorities are out of alignment is prayerlessness. I recognize that work is consuming a lot of my time but it has to - it's "end of year" and we have more work to do than ever before.
Several days have passed since I first started this post. In my confession, I realize that the confession that needed to occur was my confession to the Lord. I surrendered this time of prayerlessness to Him. I wish I could say that it was instantaneously fixed because it isn't. It is better, and that is all that I can ask for.
Don't get me wrong, I am having the time of my life. Work has never been more fast-paced and fun. I love what I do and the day just speeds by; this I really like because it makes the time away from my kids less painful. We're hiring as fast as we can to help with the workload so there's new people to train as well. I like training, teaching and showing others just how much I love the work we do in Fort Worth.
But...there are personnel issues, decisions to make, and a host of things I can't really talk about. I thought being a Mom would prepare me for most of the stuff I would have to deal with. It just never occurred to me that I would be using my Mom skills dealing with grown-up issues.
So, I could use your prayers. Lots of them. I am in need of guidance and direction more than ever in my career yet I am in a season of prayerlessness. I close my eyes to pray and nothing comes. I don't mind being still and listening but I'm not hearing anything either.
As I was cleaning my desk, I came across an article I saved from a Bible study I did on priorities. It pointed out that one of the keys to identifying whether your priorities are out of alignment is prayerlessness. I recognize that work is consuming a lot of my time but it has to - it's "end of year" and we have more work to do than ever before.
Several days have passed since I first started this post. In my confession, I realize that the confession that needed to occur was my confession to the Lord. I surrendered this time of prayerlessness to Him. I wish I could say that it was instantaneously fixed because it isn't. It is better, and that is all that I can ask for.
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