The Confessing Lunatic

God is directing. We are responding. Satan is attacking. Wednesday was a powerful time of prayer in response to God's directing. I've known for months that God was instructing me to speak up and I have been miserable because I stayed quiet. Wednesday I couldn't hold back any longer...so I spoke up. Who knew that it was going to be the right time? God did. A movement has begun with our family...the family we used to call Pleasantview Baptist. But evidently Satan doesn't want us to move out in God's direction because I can feel the attack we are under. Our good friend, Jackie, told us immediately after the service that she has a "suspicious" looking lymph node. I got home and got an email that I allowed to steal my joy. Then there was something else to throw me. I confess...I became angry where in just an hour before, I was at peace. Jim sat down at the kitchen table with me and said I had to pray right then and there. Truthfully, I wanted to hold on...

This past Sunday I shared with my Sunday School class the verses from Hebrews 12 that got me through my overwhelming week at work. In fact, we studied the first twelve. This week has been no less overwhelming but God knew I would need confirmation of His presence. As I was reading tonight, I clicked on Average Girl and discovered my confirmation. Her last post talked about the same passage in Hebrews that I had been reading. God is so cool - to speak through others whom I have never met but share a bond with is just awesome. So, thanks God.

Blogging ... I confess, it's not something that I ever would have imagined I'd be doing. I scoffed at it before I knew the why or how or what of blogging. I discovered blogging because a good friend started one when she found out she and her husband were going to have a baby. I loved reading about how her pregnancy was progressing and now seeing pictures of her baby. Every night, even when I don't have time to blog myself, I catch up on several bloggers that I read regularly. I don't really know why I am drawn to these people - most I have never met - except that they provide a surprising comfort to me with their words. They are dealing with things that I deal with or have a perspective on life or the Bible that I causes me to re-think, dig deeper or just contemplate over. Others are just plain funny. Several such posts come to mind: Stick with me...this is funny and not a personal reflection The Nearness of God It's Going to Be a Great Day The Choices We Make ...

Yeah! School is just around the corner. Aside from the obvious reason to love going back to school - buying new school supplies (yes, I love new pens, pencils, crayons, markers but that's a post for another day) - we are excited about coming to the time when the necessity for routine comes around. I confess...we've been a little lax in the Billman household when it comes to bed time, chores, and the like. School is just the thing to put our household in order... I think. It's Saturday morning and the older kids spent the night with my parents. The little ones are still asleep because we let them stay up to watch a movie and sleep on the couch bed. I should be cleaning or something yet I've wasted a good hour and a half just hanging out in Facebook trying to find friends from high school. I got in to update my profile to add my new graduate school. Yes, that's right. As if my life weren't crazy enough, I'm going back to school. I have this awesome o...

I confess...yesterday I was feeling bit overwhelmed. Work, as I've mentioned before, has been frantically busy. Yesterday was no different. I got an email from our new administrative assistant that had a scripture verse in very small type at the bottom of it. The verse was just what I needed to read at that moment so I thought I would share it with you - plus the verse before it. I've printed it and it's now just under my monitor. Today when decisions needed to be made and I couldn't focus, I read through the verses. "Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart." Hebrews 12:2-3 So, feeling a bit overwhelmed? Fix your eyes on Jesus. He's been through it all and then some.

I confess...I am wondering what I have gotten myself into. About two months ago I accepted a supervisory position at work. I never fooled myself into believing it would be easy, but I never fully believed it would be this hard. Don't get me wrong, I am having the time of my life. Work has never been more fast-paced and fun. I love what I do and the day just speeds by; this I really like because it makes the time away from my kids less painful. We're hiring as fast as we can to help with the workload so there's new people to train as well. I like training, teaching and showing others just how much I love the work we do in Fort Worth. But...there are personnel issues, decisions to make, and a host of things I can't really talk about. I thought being a Mom would prepare me for most of the stuff I would have to deal with. It just never occurred to me that I would be using my Mom skills dealing with grown-up issues. So, I could use your prayers. Lots of them. I am ...

He's home! Jim and his team arrived safely around 2:00 p.m. today. We've had a wonderful afternoon...Jim hasn't stopped talking about all that he saw, heard and did in Egypt. As we were driving home, he got choked up when he was talking about going to the mosk and watching a man and two his sons. He said that the father was showing his sons how to pray and the sons were just soaking every word and action up. We have men in our country who will show their boys how to "be a man," how to play ball, how to get good grades in school and some how to treat a lady BUT there are far too few showing their sons how to pray and be a man of God. This trip has obviously had an impact on Jim and I can't wait to find it all out. Thank you again for all your prayers for Jim and the team's safety. Please continue to pray for Josh and his family. They have a lot of work to do. So apparently do we.